I wanted to share a note with you all today. I have really struggled the past 5 days. We moved into the liquid portion of our cleanse wherein we are allowed only soups, smoothies, juices and purees. I really wanted to be able to do the liquid part of this cleanse / fast. I wanted to honor my body, God and this journey with you all. I have worked hard over the past year to separate myself from emotional eating but putting restrictions on my diet has caused old tendencies to rear its ugly head. Bingeing is a scary word- but when I am feeling icky feelings or that my diet is restricted I try and eat whatever I can- string cheese, oranges, tortilla chips- whatever is around. This kind of action hasn’t happened to me in a long while because of an amazing health coach, Simi (check out her free 3 part video series here). I knew these old tendencies were bubbling up due to the restrictions I was placing on myself- it was my bodies response to try and comfort me- so thank you body for that. Moving forward I am looking for other ways to comfort myself- a long bath, prayer, shared time with my friends, etc.
It is crazy how our bodies try and protect us. My body is screaming at me- “stop this!” After a massive- non fast approved dinner two nights ago- I felt terrible. I was so sad yesterday but I reminded myself over and over again that this is not a failure. I took yesterday to recoup and shared a nourishing home cooked meal to celebrate my mom’s birthday- it was so nice to be around family and comforting healthy food.
Today I am restarting. I am going to stick with soup and smoothies for breakfast and lunch but I am adding in nourishing / whole food dinners. I will continue to honor God- just in a way that works better for my body.
Last night I watched the documentary “Fork Over Knives” and I feel like this was a sign. I have long leaned on protein and dairy to fill my meals. Moving forward I am going to try and fill my plate with fresh fruits and veggies- but I will still add in small amounts of animal based protein.
I know I will continue to mess up my whole life- I am just trying to allow myself some grace throughout this process.
I want to leave you all with this AMAZING smoothie recipe from Alchemy Juice
The Snickerdoodle Smoothie